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i finally got diagnosis with panic disorder. i always knew i had anxiety and it was always much worse then any of my other mental illnesses and now i understand why. all of my illnesses lead back to my panic disorder no one until today told me i had it. i always kind of knew it had to be something more intense then anxiety because the way i was living and having panic attacks at random times doesnt really fit anxiety… most of the time they know why they are having an anxiety attack… i could be sitting in class and my heart starts racing and everything stops around i cant move or breath or talk and i am stuck.. and i have no idea what caused it. and i have always been so mad at myself for going into random panic attacks but now i dont have to blame myself… because it isnt my fault i guess…
also i sent in my application for my hamster to be my emotional support animal and im really nervous they arent going to accept it… they should because i have all the information but i dont know if they will and im scared, nervous and upset
and tommrow i am getting my third tattoo and it is going to hurt sooo bad im getting it on my ribs and it is going to way Warrior and the i is a semicolon and under it is a wave i maybe will figure out how to post a picture of it if not ill link my ista next week for those who want to see it. my tattoos tell my story. i have one on my wrist that says strength and on the other wrist it says hope with a butterfly with different colors representing my different mental illnesses if possible i will post those too.. talk to you all next week if not soon thanks for your help every week