Meeting myself….the last thing I ever wanted to do. I am the person I have been trying to get away from my entire life. Forever, I have lived and believed all negative about myself. Anything less – worthless, helpless, hopeless….I could go on and on. I felt undeserving of the love I so desperately wanted to fix me. Shame and guilt could have put me in the ground and I don’t say that lightly. Today, while I still feel those negative feelings, I challenge them. I challenge my thinking and When I am in a place where I cannot challenge, I have others in my life to help.
I want to know more about myself and shame and guilt and self hatred and trauma have all crippled my emotional and spiritual growth. I know a lot of what I don’t like, but not much of what I do like.
To be continued…
