Creations

before I start the blog for this week I wanted to let you all know how my finals went I got 4 As and a B- in Spanish (that’s an amazing grade in Spanish for me) anyway… my term GPA is a…… 3.7!!! which means for the first time ever… I have made deans list. I can not stress enough how important it is to be at the right college for you. having that amazing support of friends is how I did as while as I did.
Back to the real story this week.
So the first post I ever wrote on this blog was about my struggle with living with dirty people. Now I am back home for the summer. Most people would be all excited to be home but I am not. Being home means messes I can not clean up my house is kind of large. We have a kind of finished basement where my bother lives. Which is so messy because he’s 16 so I don’t even go down there. Then the main level is 6 different rooms including the kitchen with cabinets and then the upstairs 5 rooms including mine. My house is a mess because there are 3 kids living here and my mom is a working mom and doesn’t have time to clean it. But when I try to organize it, it doesn’t stay organized at all. So my room I want to keep perfect but if I do that I know what is behind my door and that just stresses me out more. Another thing, anyone who is older and in college, my mental illness started in high school and I have so many negative memories in this house I just hate being here. And I hate saying that because shouldn’t I love it? No I hate it I want to get out of this house, I feel trapped. Does this happen to anyone else? please let me know. I hate feeling alone and all I want to do is lay in bed.