Since the beginning of quarantine and everything shutting down, I have been struggling to find a routine that makes me feel good. I’m the type of person who needs a reason to leave the house otherwise my social anxiety takes over and I isolate myself at home. Having a job, going to school, and other activities caused me to wake up at a certain time and get ready so I could leave the house and make it to my obligations at a certain time. Since COVID, I haven’t had to leave the house and I have really struggled to wake up before noon every day and get dressed or feel productive in any way. I even have difficulty eating three meals a day because time doesn’t seem to matter anymore and I have no structure in my life.
As a result, I find it extremely difficult to get things done. I have work that I need to do but I can’t seem to find the motivation to do it because it doesn’t feel like I have to leave my house and be anywhere. So I put it off and feel awful that I haven’t done it yet while still feeling unmotivated. It is an endless cycle of feeling bad about myself while also lacking the feeling of caring about things I need to do. It is anxiety provoking to feel like there is no end in sight even though things are slowly opening back up. I don’t like to leave my house unless I need to and even when I do life doesn’t feel normal and it makes me very uneasy.
I’d love to hear any tips anyone might have as to how they deal with a similar feeling or how they continue to have structure in their life!
