I’ve been having a difficult time with work lately. I have 3 jobs, and I feel very stagnant in all of them. I prefer a work environment where there is plenty to do, and I don’t have to sit around and make up new things to do because there is already enough to do for my scheduled shift. A lot of people don’t seem to like constant work and enjoy the kind of flexibility and freedom that I have, but I find it overwhelming and useless. I don’t have a real sense of accomplishment anymore since the jobs stagnated, and what things I do get done simply don’t fill my shift. When there is solid, concrete work with a beginning and end to do, I’m more than happy to do it, it’s just open-ended work that bothers me. I used to really enjoy my work, but now that I need more hours and money, I’d rather do something that feels, well, real. I’d like to show up to an 8hr shift and really have 8 hours of work to do.
If I didn’t feel so connected to the work I’m already doing, I’d look for something new, maybe even go to school for something specific, but I’m already very invested in these endeavours – I wish I knew what I wanted to do.
