I’ve been very aware for many years that my brain does not stop. It goes and goes and goes and sometimes that’s great, and other times it is a battle. Its exhausting and I am learning I have to be willing to do a lot of work to take care of myself. When I say noise in my head, I mean more specifically all the self defeating, negative feelings I have in my head. The “I’m not good enough” and “What is wrong with me”, “Everybody hates me and wants me away from them”. All less feelings tend to amplify in times of darkness and isolation. Less meaning worthless, hopeless, helpless, etc.
I’m sure I’m not alone in feeling flooded with negative emotions often. Is this a minute to minute, life long process? I have found yoga helps, for that period of time throughout my day when I am practicing, my head receives some relief. Any other exercise, music, writing, reading, 12 step meetings. Connecting with others although I don’t always want to be around others. I spent a lot of years trying to numb out the trauma, the memories, the self hatred, THE NOISE! Those “coping skills”, attempts to numb myself were killing me no longer serve me anymore. Positive, solution mode only. How do we get rid of the noise just enough to keep moving forward each day? How do others not give into the noise?
