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I have struggled with isolation for a long time now. It started when I was in school. I slowly started to separate myself from friends because of my depression. When I graduated, I went to college then dropped out shortly after. After that I ended up staying in the house and not going out. I don’t really have any friends and I was having trouble making them so I had no reason to leave the house other than therapy. Not only the depression but my paranoia makes leaving the house almost impossible. I started to think that if I leave the house I’ll be ridiculed or hurt by the outside. It worsens my state of mind everyday when I think about how I have no one to reach out to. In some way, I feel like no one is reaching out to me so I end up getting upset with the outside world and I shut down. I’ve missed out on a lot of interactions and events due to my isolation and fear. The worst part is that I feel as though I cannot control it but rather it controls me. This really hinders my ability to interact with society and stops me from moving on with my life and becoming a fully functional adult. The COVID pandemic plays a big role in my isolation as well seeing as it amplified my paranoia and feelings of depression. Has COVID affected you guys in any way? Has it made things easier? I know there are others out there that fight the same battle. I would love to know what you do to overcome your anxiety and isolation. Please let me know in the comments what you do and if you relate.