This is my first blog and i think this topic/situation could be becoming more common. I think as a LGBTQ person you already have a hard time being accepted by other folks. The global changes towards the Queer community are currently taking a very bad direction. It’s possible for people to feel like they are wrong and not welcomed again, even if they used to have support in their country or by family and losing it all.
That is happening with me right now as well. I have grown up in a fairly uneducated environment, LGBTQ was not legal until I was a teenager. Now that I used to believe it was natural for me to be attracted to women I feel the same attacks that unfortunately many are feeling today. No support by Family, Friends, Country rolling back rights and protections… a true nightmare. I have personally reached a level where I am almost closeted again and I actually start to believe I am not welcomed and not normal. I know other folks feel like me. You have seen it, in more progressive countries more and more people openly identified as a part of LGBTQ.
I’ve also recently found out that the foster care I grew up in, was very homophobic & still pretty much is. No “boy hair cuts” till you’re 12, no men underwear at age 14, staff deadnaming a trans-man. Even currently dead-name him. Staff telling us we will always be a girl. Friends telling me I am ill and sin a lot, that I am killing and destroying the bloodline of my family… you name it… all this leads to feeling back in the closet. If this ever affects you, try to always be who you are and do not fight against yourself.
I thought I would share this today as my first blog. I’m concerned for the safety of myself and many other across the globe… it shouldn’t matter who you love, who you are – you are human and not something else. I’m trying to fight this. I know many others are. The self-hate from the negativity from others too… it is an everyday fight, but we exist and always will.
~ CT Support Group Community Member
